Twice the fear

Man, when I ovulate through BCPs I go all the way.


Yes, it’s twins.


Two heartbeats and they measure 6w5d and 6w3d. Which given the sole time they could have been created pretty much lines up.


I’m seeing my therapist twice a week at the moment (mainly because of going off meds cold turkey). I really cannot handle this stress and the circumstances around it are making my head spin.


Right now I’m trying to not go through every worst case scenario related to how i will ultimately lose two more babies.



9 thoughts on “Twice the fear

  1. I honestly don’t know what to say! On the one hand, I want to be all “squeeeee! Twins! So exciting!” On the other hand, I completely understand The Fear. Or, more aptly, The Excruciating Mind-Numbing Terror that Leaves You Cold. Given your history, I can understand why this doesn’t feel like good news. But I’m holding onto hope that this time is different. Sending love and hugs and as much zen as I can muster your way.

  2. Hang in there! You will get through anything that is thrown your way. And good on you for taking the time with your therapist to work through all of this! Know that we are here for you in any circumstance, but that we are all sending positive, sticky vibes your way! Hugs!!

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